I’m feeling pretty empty lately. So empty that I have no willpower left to even bear with school. School was sucking the life out of me. So I stayed at home. I did some serious thinking when I woke up and I kinda whipped out a song while I’m at it. It’s not complete but I guess its alright for now.
Waking up to an empty day
Just can’t seem to find my way
If I go, there’s too much to say
Guess that’s why I’m here to stay
I need time to relax
Too many things to reflect
All these secrets I’ve kept
I’m still trying to accept
And then I thought:
There’s so many things I wanted out of life and so many that I have not done. I’ve graced a page of a magazine, I’ve appeared on TV, I’ve won competitions all at the age of 16. I believe that I can achieve much more and theres so many areas that I can work on. I have made a list and it reads like:
>Friends whom I must learn to appreciate
>Learning to be nicer towards others
>Family members whom I must learn to understand and not take for granted
>Working ettiquttes that needed be improved
>Attitude problems that need correction
and finally,
>The world that needed to be seen and experience
I guess suicidal is way behind me today. I just hope that this lasts though
~:Alexis von C:~
gal …
sup ? hey watever u are goin through never put suicidal in the picture .. it’s not worth it .. you have been blessed to live another day so why wanna waste it and kill yourself . you can make a diff in ur life .